Is it Really My Life?

Last week, while sitting in a prayer meeting, I was asked “what is something you want this year”. My answer? Obedience to God and Boldness. I believe those two things go hand and hand. I want to be obedient in whatever God calls be to do and boldness to walk it out.

The word obedience scares me. Growing up, I’ve always had my own desires and dreams I want to accomplish. However, what I didn’t understand was my plans aren’t always God’s plans. God had a plan for my life before I was even born. My life isn’t just about what Jannetta wants to do. It is about what does God want me to do to glorify him.

With that comes the act of obedience. Sometimes what God calls us to do isn’t easy or comfortable. Actually when I think about it, God’s plans don’t keep you in your comfort zone AT ALL. But one thing I do know is, his ways are higher than my ways. His plans are far more greater than any plans I have for myself. I’ve always wondered what if God calls me to move? Or change careers? Or go into ministry? Would I listen? Could I do it? Honestly, I’m not sure. That’s why this year I really want that to change. I really want to seek the voice of God.

I’m reminded of Jeremiah 29:11;

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future”.

He truly does! And I’ve seen it happen. I’ve seen numerous instances where God has a plan, I was obedient, and my future was made even brighter.

I remember when I first started dating my then boyfriend now husband; when our relationship became serious, I prayed and asked God if this was my future husband. I was desperate to hear from him. I’ll never forget all the wonderful signs and overwhelming peace God gave me when he confirmed “yes, he is the one”. I am so happy I was obedient. My husband is my best-friend and the most wonderful thing that has happened to me.

I remember the day I wanted to apply for a new position at work. Repeatedly, I paced back in forth in my apartment asking God is this the job he would have for me? The thought of applying for the job scared me because it would require me to leave my comfy work-from-home job and travel back into the office to train and lead new hires. Again, I’ll never forget the overwhelming peace God gave me to apply for the job. I applied and just a few weeks later, I was offered the position. That position grew me, helped me get out of my comfort zone, and opened doors for new opportunities.

Knowing that, why is it still so hard to be obedient to God’s leadings? It’s simple. Sometimes I forget, this life is not my own. It’s not about me. “Me” is a phrase I want to abandon this year. I want to do and be obedient to what God is calling me to do. Pray for me as I walk this out…